Who am I?
Updated: Aug 7, 2020
Throughout my time in the Arts and Entertainment Management courses one theme continues to pop up. Who are you and what is your story? I personally love this question because you have to delve into yourself and ask the existential question of who are you really. As someone who feels like they have lived many lives within this current life, I think that it is fun to explore who you are.
Since I was sixteen years old, I have seen my hair as something that I can change based on how I feel because it grows back. This always seems to strike a nerve with some of the more conservative people that I know. Why? Why should my hair stay the same colour for my whole life or at least until it starts to grey naturally. Then I have to dye my hair to cover up the aging. I think that you should dye your hair while you are young (be it in age or in your heart) and cut it in crazy styles. Hair grows back and you can always change the colour to something more neutral. So why not dye it a crazy colour?? I have found over the years that each hair colour I have had embraces and exposes a different side of my personality.
In the same way with dressing up for Halloween or for a play, I have explored the different sides to me. When I was younger I was a slightly nerdy looking bookworm, then I discovered dance and became this less nerdy ballet obsessed girly girl. This process went on as I explored different styles and appearances until I have settled on what I am today, which is a smorgasbord of all of the "lives" I have lived but my personality has developed into one that has learned from the way I have been treated with each physical appearance. That being said I think that deep down I have always had the potential to be who I am today and the experiences that I have had have definitely helped shape me into the take no bullshit person I am today.
Underneath all of the costumes and masks that I have worn throughout the years, I have always had the same underlying personality and beliefs. These beliefs include:
If you are going to do something, commit to that thing completely and see it through to the end.
Whatever you do be passionate about it because everything has better results when there is passion involved.
Forgive those who have wronged you but don't put yourself in a position to be vulnerable to them again because you will get hurt.
All of this is who I am outside of who I am as a musician or as a student. I think that everyone should take some time to explore who they are and what they want to look like to some extent. It is a fun and important life-long journey.